Wednesday 14 August 2013

Broke Me Open


Aaron Turner/Kathryn McCormick - Kissing You - SYTYCD 

I watched this this evening and then I cried and cried and cried.  Jay was supposed to be this person for me.  Had so much potential to be.  I believed he would be.

But he wasn't.  And I don't know that I'm ready to stop hoping he'll prove me wrong.

It hurts how much I loved him and didn't let myself be loved by him because I knew he'd leave.  Knew he was leaving.

And it hurts because when I'm with him I feel safe.  Until he leaves.

This is how he should have been.

Someone needs to be.